Honestly, my friendly blog reader, I’ve been struggling with my decision to let go of my responsibilities with the DDA. I absolutely know down to my core that I’ve made the right decision, however, a part of me is still worried about what other people think. They’ll be let down. They’ll think I’m giving up, abandoning my community, that I didn’t mean it when I proclaimed to the rooftops that I LOVE Ortonville!!
That couldn’t be farther from the truth. Of course I love Ortonville, but I love myself more. I don’t want to volunteer out of guilt. Resentment is poisonous. I want to give to my community from a place of generosity and love. I need to give myself a chance to grow and develop and in order to do that, I need space and time to focus on sharing my gifts.
Stepping out of my comfort zone and leaning into the new and uncertain is scary, no doubt. But that’s why I’m here. To connect to and follow guidance from my Captain. To have faith that my development and highest intention will lead me to my true calling. It’s not comfortable. But then transformation never is. Like a snake shedding her skin, my discomfort is a sure sign of growth.
That’s why I need to make a conscious effort to help myself feel better. Nobody else is responsible for my happiness. Nobody else can tell me what I need to do. It’s up to me to chase my happy.
So, my friendly blog reader?
What makes you happy? How recognize it? Where do you find it? Who can you share it with?
Like Ze says “You gotta chase that shit!”
So, go get it!!
Thanks to Ze Frank for being so damn awesome!!